Living an Ordinary Life

For me, this is where the discomfort starts to set in. With no deviation from the school and activities schedule until at least June, and no vacation on the horizon, I start to get antsy, when I feel like I’ve personally hit a plateau. Over a decade into my mediation practice, I’ve at least developed an awareness of this: my extreme distaste for when it feels like nothing is happening in my life. When there’s momentum, forward movement, growth – I’m good. But the second that starts to slow, I get that itchy allergic reaction.

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A Fractal Analytic of Loneliness

Why do I feel so desperately lonely?
Because “I am” is now invisible: it is ungraspable, uncertain, unstable, perpetually withheld from my reach. “I am” is always becoming and persists at the end of time. “I am” is inexhaustible movement, relationship, fluxing transition between states. But “I am” is breathing me when “I think” I am breathing it. It is an affirmation of my existence. It is Change. Always changing (thank God, always changing). 

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Embodying Stress 

Here’s the truth of it – our bodies are built to respond to stress, release the energy created by the response, and then recuperate. This is the function of our autonomic nervous system. Disrupting or controlling this natural process can lead to a host of physical and mental illnesses.
So how do we embody our stress response, and still operate in a society that largely seeks to oppress it? And how do we deal with the stores of stress gathered over years without unleashing a maelstrom?

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My Body. Myself. 

Like many meditators, I’m drawn to practices that transcend this body. It’s enticing for me to take refuge in the sounds around me, observe the colour and form of the natural world, spread my awareness out into the vast reaches of space. It was a revelation that meditation could chart a path away from the stuck places, but now that it has, I need a way back in so that I can heal them. It turns out the long-avoided embodiment practices are the ones I need most right now.

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Found in Translation

For me, embodiment involves the incorporation of our thinking, feeling, and willing capacities. A two-way path of communication between mind and body. This communication channel wasn’t something that had been developed or exercised for the better part of my life. I’m learning that our bodies speak a different language than our penthouse dwelling hamsters.

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